“There are only patterns, patterns on top of patterns, patterns that affect other patterns. Patterns hidden by patterns. Patterns within patterns. If you watch close, history does nothing but repeat itself. What we call chaos is just patterns we haven’t recognized. What we call random is just patterns we can’t decipher. what we can’t understand we call nonsense. What we can’t read we call gibberish. There is no free will. There are no variables.”
Chuck Palahniuk, Survivor
(Source: adrieldaniel, via notjapanesee)
Today I had my project presentation. It was THE WORST.
First because this whole semester was a disaster and I couldn’t do anything right. I had several anxiety attacks and had to quit my job.
Secondly because of all classes, my project was one of the worst and I can’t blame it all on my group. I myself started to believe I am not able to be a designer. I spent two years in college and none of my projects was good.
I’m always the one who people feel sad for because I make a lot of effort and everything looks shitty in the end. I just wanna sleep, read and eat for the rest of my life rather than facing the fact that I’ll never be a good designer.
And that’s not all, as if things were not already lame enough I ruined everything in my internship subscription and lost my chance to study abroad, all this happened while having to listen about how all my friends are going to study somewhere cool next year and I’ll be stuck in the same lame place in my lame life.
And right when I thought things could not get any worse my flatmate decides to make a fucking stupid christmas party and invites the guy who dumped me and he WILL BRING THE GIRL WHO HE IS CURRENTLY DATING. Today in college I had to cope with bullshit like “I would totally fuck that guy who dumped you” coming from my “friends”.
I still have a lot of work to do for tomorrow and I have no idea how I’m going to find motivation to do anything besides cry all day. I suck at every single aspect of my existence.
ana baby you know you're #1 tied with alex ;) also seriously your style is so rad you're becoming the brazilian alexa chung!
oh, Reem, you’re the sweetest!!!!!!!!!!!!